What Everything Could Be Dan Albergotti
Everything must be better than it really is. A young couple carelessly makes love on top of their neatly made bed. They find one clear moment, and afterward they feel like they are the only animals on earth, breathing and staring into each other’s eyes in silence. Long minutes pass before she says, I wonder how long I’ll remember this. He has no answer. Forty years later, she is dead and the question moot. It must be better. The ambivalent loons that disappear beneath the still surface of the lake must invent a world better than this one in each murky dive, must become birdfish waving feathered fins and soaring down toward swimming prey. Beauty must be a dark world as much as it is a bright one. Imagine the lines of people that met in bright sunlight on ancient Attic plains. Imagine the silence between the lines beforehand broken by chattering teeth from each phalanx. Melancholy may very well inhabit the temple of Delight, the wild West Wind may sound the trumpet of a prophecy, and I may be an organic harp. Yet I continue to grow old. The music of the spheres may be a great symphony of unbroken silence: void, more void, a crescendo of void. The pinpricks of light against the black sky may be the eyes of cold, distant gods. Somewhere there must be music. Somewhere the lights must be going out. When I was nine, I told my mother how I had struck the devil’s head while digging in our backyard, how I had beaten him back to hell with the shovel’s face. You did? Well, that’s good, she said, smiling. Then she sent me back outside to play, to work, to make clouds bloom in the sky, to watch the ground for sprouting horns and flame. |
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