Here
Kathryn Stripling Byer
From the southernmost reaches of night,
I have come here to stand at this window. Here I can see
winter trees linedancing on the horizon and glimpse over traffic
the bolt of the gray Tuckasegee
unrolling its sackcloth.
No ashes, just a rusty gate I jimmied
open at evensong
onto an arcade of pecan trees,
rows merging into the unseen, the underside,
through which I’ve followed a black shawl of trails
to their jump-offs where sky always waits
like an ocean in which I hear voices call:
deep in an iron skillet, sizzle of okra dropped
into hot oil, and the sound of an old woman sighing
as she sets the table. She tells me her name
is no longer one lone woman’s name but a chorus
of names: Willa Mae, Alma, Ivy Rowe, Annie Lee,
and, from the attic where she’d waited
throughout my girlhood
for me to sing flesh again onto her bones,
my mute grandmother, trailing me
into the wilds of the Blue Ridge where she had been born,
taking root in the lexicon of wildflowers
blooming on Deep Gap, Kanati, and Siler’s Bald.
No wonder, leaving my father’s black fields,
where the dirt smelled of duty and death
and the sunset burned all the way down to its roots
and let wildfire leap over
the ditches and burn up the sky,
I arrived, not a moment too soon, at the junction
of Thomas Divide and Kanati Fork,
air ripe with bear scat and leafmold.
Or was it because of the windows where every night I watched
the skyfield on fire dying out, cloud by cloud,
into darkness that I came
to this place where sky huddles over the Balsams
and lingers awhile every morning
as mist lifting off the weeds clasping the edges of Cullowhee
Creek? Over thirty years I’ve watched the way
light begins here. It still wakes me up. Lets me be.
Here. Where I am.
from Descent (LSU Press) |